ugh! i know it's hella screwed guys. so that's why i have a new one XD

http://www.xanga.com/bubblegumsex

XD go there~ delete this linkie please. spankyaa. haha

heyy ya'll. im not pissed off today. but kinda hot and cold at the same time. my head is hot but my hands are cold. wonderful insight hm?

the computer works~ *jumps for joy*. i tried on a red marilyn monroe like dress for jrprom at groupusa it looks pretty good...haha sorry i never like to brag. so anyway it makes me wanna go now. fuckkkk. hehe. tomo called me last night on the cellphone. i'll bet its really expensive. ooh crap i hope i didnt use up all my weekday nighttime minutes. heh heh heh.

ok brb homework ~<3

i took the 'which uke are you?' quiz (uke= the bottom in sex) and i got a seme...-.- aww. shucks.

im hungry. i want ice cream! oh yeah. esther left some ice cream here yesterday. she made us dinner. sandwich and salad. it was yummy...but we were starving to death also...lol. and we were watching signs. i thought it was so scary but the ending sucked. haha i was like "when do get to die??" well i guess they didnt die. harhar.

ok happy happy *clap*

see new xanga colors. black + green= um...lima bean?

-kaptainkinkie-

ok sorry im pissed off again. it'[s sunny outside...so i dont know why im pissed off. its sunday and i dont really have any homework but i feel so lost because i dont have class tomorrow. i kind of want to go to someone's house and ask them a particular question. but then i realized that maybe i shouldn't do that just..because.

ok life is sucky. i just watched the first vcd of talented mr. ripley and it's creepy. matt damon is hella cute though. his acting skills are freakishly good..in my opinion anyway. and yeah. he's hot i like him. screw ben afleck no one gives a flying fuck about him. except jennifer lopez (j.lo who's gunna turn into j.a soon ick) who i think is dumb, changing her name like that. her name is her industry you cant just fucking change it whenever you fucking want to.

sorry again.

i need to eat some tranquilizers

either that or go die in a well.

.....sigh.

-bitch

im posting again. for the second time of the day. i cant focus on homework. too many thoughts going around in my head.

just thinking fuck you fuck you fuck you....

don't know why. sorry i don't know why. i dont know...my head hurts. not because it hurts but because i want to...release this thing. it's alive and eating me...

i kind of want to cry.

havent cried in a long time. can't remember if that's a good thing or not.

you guys who read my blog always see that im upset huh. i dont know why ...sorry for bothering you with my shitty thoughts.

grr...sorry again. why am i apologizing?

just breathe ....

i hate the weather right now. the sun's setting...and i can see some of the sky. it's not blue anymore. the clouds have tainted it already. virgin snow...falls somewhere, not here.

so tired of this...

i want to change. into a different me. im the catepiller right now...long and awkward. i want to burst out from my cocoon and become a butterfly. when can i do that?

oh now the sky is orange. when will my friend visit me? i miss him. dont know why..

will this be a perfect friendship? its not that i dont appreciate anything..

the wind is rustling again. i want to tell him 'i love him'.

-am i invisible?-